GRRRR! SO Angry!!!

Have you ever had one of those mornings where you wake up in a horribly bad fucking mood.

And no, it's not PMS.

I haven't been sleeping well for the past few days. Since I'm not taking Geodon anymore- I take benadryl every night- so I can get at least a little sleep AND I have bad allergies- so taking this at least once a day helps me feel better.

I've been out of benadryl for a few days now- so every little movement or sound wakes me up.

I'm tossing and turning all night long. I woke up this morning to a big "BAM" sound- it was Levi in his crib- never a good way to wake up by the way- to a really loud noise!- also my whole body was really itchy. It's totally an allergic reaction to the foods I've been eating. Usually if I take benadryl then I don't get such a reaction. And yes I could make it easier on myself and not eat any milk products- But then I'd eat nothing in the house. We're running a little low on food, and I'm waiting ever so patiently for food stamps to finally kick in.

Food stamps were given 10 days to comply with the court order from Albany. We call them today and they say they have 30 DAYS to comply-which is total and complete bullshit!

So we're going to call Albany today- and try to fix this horrible situation.

I really don't want to have to use all of August's SSI money towards food again, I want it to go towards bills and things the kids need, like diapers and such.

This is so very frustrating.

Yeah so this morning- I was not happy. Plus Dave was up all night, trying to fix the computer.

His email was hacked the other day and we got two viruses on the computer. Whenever something goes wrong with the computer- Dave fixes it- thank goodness- but not without being completely obsessed- for hours on end fixing the problem- in a BAD freakin' mood. He couldn't focus on anything else, but the computer. Plus we have the old game Tetris on our computer and he won't step away from the damn thing. I mean I love Tetris too, but I'm not going to lose sleep over it.

This food stamps thing- really has me in a knot. I can't wait for this problem to get fixed- so that I don't have to worry about my family starving.

On a good note- Levi face is getting better. I don't think I blogged about what was happening- I was very busy trying to get my baby better.

He got a bug bite over the weekend on his cheek, which very quickly got badly infected. I think he might have been rubbing it, or maybe he was severely allergic to the bite. We're not quite sure. So This whole week, we've been back and forth at the doctor's office, plus medicaid didn't want to cover one of his prescriptions for some unknown freaking reason. I also had to put hot compresses on his cheek several times a day. A couple of days ago, I spent the night crying because I was so worried about my baby- his whole cheek was so swollen- and I felt helpless.

Little did I know I actually was helping, and now his cheek is getting much much better- it's still going to take awhile for it to completely go away- but this is progress.

I've been extra emotional this week. Not in the "poor me" kind of way- but every time I was thanking someone- I'd start to get all teary eyed. It was a little on the sick side- since I HATE crying.

Plus I went into Walgreen's the other day- and maybe all of a sudden I have static electricity powers or something ( remember the t.v. show "Static Shock!") and I was shocking everything I touched!!! Including my sister several times! It was crazy- but very funny at the same time.

All I want to do is eat fried chicken, pizza and chocolate right now- but I have none and that makes me very very sad. I really do love fried chicken- is there anything that's not good deep fried??!

The answer is NO! DUH!

I can't believe you were even trying to come up with an answer! Shame on you!!!!!

Anyways- that's my rant for today.

Kisses Bitches!!!