Since I moved my whole world has turned upside down .
Most of it I don't remember.
It's like a fever dream-more like nightmare.
I've been stuck.
My body is ill.
My mind is better some minutes and worse others.
My children are happy.
My family is happy
I am watching my life pass by.
Like through distorted lenses I can't seem to see life clearly and I'm not quite a part of this world.
I feel so different than everyone.
There's no connection between me and the rest of the planet I so deeply want to connect but I cannot.
I'm the VOID.