Today..today... today

This morning started off just great. I mean this sarcastically of course.
I waited downstairs with my daughter Violet in the front of the building for her school bus for half an hour. It never arrived!
I called the bus company and the bus driver called me a liar saying he was there- and I wasn't! Which is completely false and I have a witness to back me up.
I feel like everyone walks all over me because I'm a woman and I sound young.
I had several lawyers walk all over me- but the minute Dave gets on the phone- they have a different tone.
When Dave asks the bus driver if he was calling me a liar- he backed the fuck up- and decided that from now on he would call when he was a few minutes away from my house. See?!
I'm having such a rough time with everything lately. But I'm STILL trying to stay positive. My boy Marco, has been an angel, and has been trying his hardest to help me. He's my family- we would do anything for each other.
Dave has been helping around the house more. He even cleaned up the living room and the kitchen today- making my life a little less stressful.
I thought I had found a lawyer- now he asks me how to I plan on paying him? All of a sudden, since it was decided it would be taken out of the settlement- now he's saying he needs money from me sooner more than later.
FAN-FUCKING-TASTIC!
I really can't deal with lawyers. Except for my best girl- you know who you are- but you're in St.Thomas- and I miss you terribly and your boy Joe, you both are AWESOME lawyers and people!
So now the search continues. I've called legal aid- my very last hope- and they told me to call them again- but on Tuesday- ONE week from my court date, on which the landlord will demand rent.
I'm prepared for the worst.
What happens if we don't get a buyout and have to move because we can't afford the rent here???
Where would we go?
These are questions rattling around my cage of a mind right now.
Oh yeah and my daughter's "Team meeting"- the meeting where all her therapists and teachers gather to discuss her progress, have all but one cancelled.
And most of them are picking on me about her attendance!
She is SICK!!! Really ILL!!! What the fuck don't they fucking understand!?!
I want nothing more than to send my daughter to school everyday and for her to have her therapies. They make it seem like I'm a shitty mother or something. Which I KNOW for a fact I'm not!
I'm frustrated.
I wish Dave would talk to everyone for me- than maybe we could get stuff done- because at the end of the day- I'm still a woman- and men in power find women inferior to them.
That irks me so much.

Why do ALL the WRONG people have money!?!

Wish me luck in finding a new home- and lawyer.

Kisses to all my powerful, caring, wonderful bitches out there!!!
Lemme hear you ROAR!

This Positively SUCKS ASS!

Today started groggy.
Last night and this morning, I gave Lee a bath again due to a high fever- that we can't seem to break. I'm hoping today will be that lucky day.
I found out my mom's hours have been cut down due to problems in the company she works for- so there will be even less money coming in.
Then I got Violet's school photo... OH MY GOD! She looks miserable! She looks a wreck! I called the "photographers"- I put this in quotes because "photographers", after seeing this photo, they are certainly NOT, to see if the photo could be retaken. Well it turns out it's up to the school, if the photographers do a re-shoot.
Oy!
This whole time- since 9 A.M. Men have been working on my front door. They are still here- NINE hours later. They were supposed to replace our front door due to lead paint. You would think this would be easy- but nooooooo of course not.
Turns out the landlord won't replace the locks on our door until we let the rest of the repairs get done. We would LOVE for the repairs to be done- but they sent painters that AREN'T certified in mold removal. So they would just end up PAINTING over the mold- yet AGAIN. GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!
And the landlord threatened to sue US over having "too many people" in one apartment.
YEAH! Can you believe this shit!?! Our apartment's size is equal in square feet to a four bedroom! Way big enough for all of us- plus WE DON'T want to be here anymore anyways!!!!
I'm at my rope's end. I was turning red and shaking earlier- I'm at a loss and thinking of my options.
My dad just came home, and said he has to pay back the petty cash money he borrowed, and he's short $50.
On another note- We filed an appeal on our food stamps/medicaid case that was wrongfully shut down.
I'm just waiting for a crazy huge explosion to finish the day- seeing the way it's been going thus far.
Oh yeah, and for awhile there- our door didn't close! My blood was boiling!
Dave finally got the door to close and lock.
I'm so pissed at this fucker!
Dave was able to pry our lock off from the old door, so in actuality- the landlord doesn't have our locks to keep from us thank goodness.
Where's my fucking miracle when I need it????????!!!!!


I apologize for the long rant session, but please understand where I'm coming from.
I'm very frustrated and tired of being fucked with.
I can't wait to fucking move out already!!!!


At the end- I just have to sit back and laugh at how fucking horrifying today was.
Here is my daughter's very very sad school photo. I have to say she is so much more beautiful than she looks in this photo. My poor child!!! And look at the background!!! It looks like something is coming out of her head! The photographers SUCK!!!!!

Kisses to my beautiful wonderful, caring, loving bitches out there!