Trying desperately to write daily

Let's see how this goes.

I made eggs for everyone (five adults and 1 curious babygirl. The other one wanted no part in it).
I feel everyone takes me for granted.
I should go on strike!!!!

Thunderstorms kept Lee up most of the night. So I pulled his crib right next to my bed, so that I could hold his hand for several hours, so he could sleep, while I did not.
The things mamas do for the kids, huh?
I love my babies, so it's totally worth it.

I was in pain most of the night and uncomfortable. Not fun at all.

Craving lots of eggs ( pastured eggs are DELICIOUS!!! When I can afford them;), pickles ( FROMTHE BARREL!!! NO JARRED FREAKS OF NATURE PLEASE!!!) and my homemade chocolate chunk cookies ( I made them two days ago and everyone seems to be attacking them!!!)
I totally fucked up  the recipe, because I've been so out of it lately. But they came out the best chocolate chip cookies I ever made!!! Go figure!!!

I'm tired, cranky, and a bit delusional. the day being stormy doesn't help.

Kisses Bitches!!!!

P.S. I'm crossing my fingers I get interviewed for a segment on autism, for CBS, this week.
Oh I HOPE I HOPE I HOPE!!!!!! Please cross your fingers too!!!

Am I the only person on the planet, that thinks my kids being autisitic isn't a problem, or curse. But a miracle. My kids are so special, and perfect the way they are and were always meant to be. I'm not looking for a "cure", or for them to grow out of it. I LOVE my babies more than life itself. And I believe God made them perfect the way they are.
But I guess that's just me, huh?

I went to court today...

I can't go into detail- even though I'm DYING to do so- because the case isn't over yet- and I don't know who's listening exactly. So I'm going to play it safe- and when it's all over- I'll dish about it all!

Let's just say it was really difficult to think positive this week- because certain negative things were happening. I felt like it was a test of my faith. And I believe I passed the test with flying colors. PHEW!

The case was adjourned today- yes I know- again- but this time because there weren't ANY trial judges!!! NONE! ZIP! NADA!!! I guess they were all on vacation.

Things have been happening left and right!

We have to take Food stamps to a fair hearing- yet again- because they aren't complying with the court order.

They gave us less than the usual months amount- and no retro! ARGH!

They are being so difficult!!!

My mom was a nervous wreck all week- but she's a very anxious person in general. So I had to calm her worries constantly- because Dave and I felt in our gut everything was going to be okay in the end.

After court today- I looked at my mom in the face- and told her "Has everything I've ever told you would happen- actually happen?"

She answered and nodded "Yes".

I then said "Then you have no stop listening to everyone else from now on. All the naysayers out there- and the negative people." Do you understand?"

She nodded again yes.

Everything I've ever told my mom would happen, did occur. From the time I was young till now.

I told my mom "I have always kept my promises- and I will never let you down."

I always want my mom to know I'm there for her, and we will be okay in the end.

I hate seeing my mom make herself sick with worry.

I just have to have faith- faith there is a reason for everything.

Today I believe was one of those days- the day I see where my faith will take me.

Like I said, I wish I could tell you EVERYTHING, that's been happening this week- and I definitely will- when this is ALL over.

Love you all!

Thanks for listening.

And as always, Kisses Bitches!!!

* photo I found on the net- Simon Cowell (original American Idol Judge) on vacation.

It's kind of like what I picture all the trial judges doing right about now.