Today

Today Levi had an audition for Tylenol.

I learned a long long time ago- expect NOTHING from auditions- and you'll always be surprised. When I go now to auditions I have fun, no pressure- no stress.

Levi was really really good and very happy. I was very proud of him.

The minute we walked in a model started baby talking to him and grabbed his foot. Kayla and I were both a bit surprised, but thought nothing of it- women kind of go crazy around little babies- especially the women that WANT little babies of their own.

One of the casting directors wanted me to audition as well, as his mom. I was pleasantly surprised! She insisted and filled out a form for me.

She hurried Levi and my audition, because he was the only baby there.

The studio was so nice. The showbiz families there were a little spooky- but I'm getting used to that more and more.

While waiting for the audition I realized Levi's foot was FULL of glitter!!!

As was his forehead and my hands! We later figured out it was from the model that grabbed his foot- I'd been playing with his feet and tickling him. Dave and I call glitter- glurpes- because it's just like herpes. The minute you walk into a room, with a girl that's wearing glitter- you're covered with glitter even if you never even touched her. Glitter is crazy like that.

So my son was sparkling. We went into the auditioning room, and right away they told me "You're a very young mom!" Meaning I was TOO young to play the mom role! Nuts, right?!

What do I look like??? A teenage mom?!! It's just crazy! I was flattered but more disturbed thinking how young do they think I am???

Thank goodness for video cameras! I love auditions with video cameras!

They had me interact with Levi- which of course was so easy! And he smiled and laughed!!

The director said to me, she saw his photo and thought he was so adorable she had to have him come in for an audition.

It went great. I was so proud of him. And I had lots and lots of fun while doing it!

So I find out tonight if we go to the call back tomorrow. BTW tomorrow is Dave and my 12 year anniversary ( Of the day we met)!!!

It would be a great present for him to get the part!

Oh yeah, and the casting director was really excited to hear I also have a daughter!

So it was a great day after all. Even with the rain.

Wish us luck! It would certainly help this month!

Love ya all!!

kisses bitches! You better WORK!

How my casting went...

Last night was horrible. Levi is teething really badly- screaming all night long. And Violet was coughing all night long. So no sleep whatsoever for Dave and I.
I couldn't function this morning and the kids were nuts! Especially Levi- who is usually all smiles and laughs. My poor baby boy.
So I couldn't go on the school tour I planned for this morning.
But I still had to go to my casting today even though I wasn't feeling so grand either. The casting was today at 2 P.M. near F.I.T. ( to those of you knew know me- you know I despise F.I.T. and the students that go there- not the teachers though)
I was 20 minutes early- like usual.
By the way- I felt like a sausage packed in casing the whole way there due to the fact Dave shrunk ALL my clothes. And no it's not just the fact I'm getting bigger;)
He shrunk the kids clothes as well. So I was being squeezed by my jeans ever so tightly- I felt like a hoochie. And those days had long past for me. Long long ago.
So I went in and got the whole shpeel about the music artist and the photographer.
The photographer I knew a lot about. He's amazingly talented. But he is not my fave photographer of all time- that is of course, the one the only David LaChappelle. I worship the ground he walks on- he is the reason I take photographs.
After I write my name and number on a sheet of paper- I go in to meet the photographer and there were a few other people in the room- that did not introduce themselves.
He took a few close-ups and mentioned the necklace I was wearing ( my fave cigarette necklace) was interesting. It's a conversation piece for sure.
This was our short conversation while he took my photos.
I said to him " Most people ( for some very odd reason) think the cigarettes on my necklace are real."
To which he replied, "Wow, that's strange. I imagine they wouldn't last long(meaning the cigarettes). What are they made of?"
I said "Plastic???"
He then asked me if I was available on the shoot dates. To which I answered yes. And Then asked me if I had any more tattoos ( which was apparently the reason I was chosen for the casting). I said yes- "On my neck, back, finger, thigh and ankle."
Then he said "okay". And signaled for me that I could leave.
Yup. That was it. I took maybe 3 minutes, if I was lucky.
As I left everyone in the waiting room gave me the crook eye and the up-down.
I felt dirty yet again.
I decided to perk myself up by buying Violet some well deserved toys to bring to her great-grandma's on Valentine's day to keep her occupied.
All in all the casting wasn't bad- but it wasn't that great either. I doubt I got that part- but maybe just maybe- I'll get another part from that same casting.
Who knows.
I'm tired and really disappointed I can't go to my girlie's house tonight to hang.
I adore my Molly. And I was really looking forward to it for about a month now.
But the kids- Levi especially won't let me leave for too long.
The last night I went out at night was Dave and my anniversary- for a very quick bite at a local restaurant. We had to rush home because Violet was sick.
I have plans for my b-day celebration on Feb. 19th at my favorite place, The White Rabbit. I have got to be there and spend time with my friends- who I miss terribly.

I love you all and see you real soon!
kisses bitches!!!

Castings...

I have a casting tomorrow. No- it's no pay but it is a brilliant photographer and it is a music video.
This will be my first casting since before I was pregnant with Levi.
Castings and I don't go together. I have never gotten a job from a casting.
And boy do I have interesting stories of the castings I've been on. That's for sure.
So I'm kinda nervous. Well... really nervous.
Casting are basically cattle calls. They treat you like you're a cow. MOOOOO!
I've had directors that right away hate my guts. Yeah- that's always fun.
Or the total opposite- where I get a call back- I have everyone rolling on the floor laughing at how incredibly charming and funny I am... then never get the part.
When I go to castings I feel like I've been abused. Or more to the point- shot in the stomach.
It's a huge hit to the ego. Most people know me as pretty confident- because frankly I could give two shits about what you think of me- but at castings- that's what you're there for. For them to "pick" you or not. It's ALL about what THEY think of you. It makes me feel dirty. Yet- I love what I do. I just don't love ALL of it.
A lot of times I think about quitting modeling for good. No MAS!
But then some amazing job or opportunity sucks me back in.
It used to be my living. I live and breathed modeling. All I did 24/7 was network and get me out there. It was exhausting- and I loved every minute of it.
Now my life is a bit different. One- I've had TWO kids- one rather recently I might add. And I'm still in post-baby body. Which means- everything's not where you want it to be. And my babies are now my life. My family is my life. I take care of a family of seven people. Daily. Nightly. They are more important to me than myself.
So castings- I go when I can, if I can. Maybe even have a story to share with you guys and gals.
But modeling is no longer my life. Just an aspect of it.
My life is more worth while now- that's for sure.
So here I am typing about my casting tomorrow and now I'm not so nervous. Actually I'm pretty relieved and calm. Knowing no matter what happens tomorrow- it's not that big a deal. I get to come home to my lovely babies- and get a giggle or two out of them and maybe even a high five!

Talk to you this weekend- to let you know how it went.

Peace out my darlings!
Till next time- kisses bitches!