Cycling daily. And I don't mean bicycling!
So much is going on. My kids and I have four or five doctor appointments a week!!! Sometimes twice in one day!
It's overwhelming. I'm finally going on Thursday to see the doctor that performs the hysterectomy. Hooray!!!
In about three weeks it will all be out. Thank G-D! I'm now on progesterone to stop the bleeding but its making me nauseous everyday and my hair fall out in clumps. Fun times. Fun times!
But I need the bleeding to stop.
I have changed my haircolor three times in about one week with manic panic (that doesn't make your hair fall out ). I'm so Bipolar right now one minite I'm talking at a mile a minute next I'm having a crippling panic attack or next minute I'm sobbing. My doc upped all my medications woohoo and added a few new ones. I love my doc. She rocks. Within five minutes of talking to her, she saw me cycling and believed me. She knows me so well. She was the only doc that would take me when I finally left all the hospitals.
All the other doctors thought I was a lost cause. Isn't that nice? And not worth helping.
I feel so out of control right now. I'm trying so hard to center myself. Thank goodness I have Em. She's my rock. When everything around me is spinning I have her to hold onto. I love her so much.
I am losing weight really quickly from my stomach issues, yet to be diagnosed- biopsy from my colonoscopy and endoscopy on august 8th, still haven't come back yet. And the doctors are very scared! So far I've lost (since I had my daughter Lula) over 60lbs. And that was only four months ago.
I feel sick everyday. So once the hysterectomy thing is done, I move on to my stomach next I guess, huh? Hopefully my breasts will be removed not to long from now. Crossing my fingers and my toes!
the biggest gay bipolar bitch around!
*photo of my new wildfire red hair